I'm way off track. I signed up for Weight Watchers and did really well for the first week, but then I have slowly lost my way. All week long I've been eating like crazy. I know it is out of depression and frustration. Tonight I have eaten more than a half a bag of M & M's Peanuts. I'm just going crazy with my eating. I don't know why I am doing this.
I've got to get myself under control. Tomorrow when I get up I will only eat what is good for me. I'll stay within my points.
If I get anxious, then I need to come blog about it. No more of this. This is abuse! I am abusing myself with food. I can't keep doing this. I think it is this sadness from my split with Kevin. Why do you have such power over me. I loved you Kevin. I still love you in my own way. I miss you so much. But you aren't good for me. If you wanted to, you could have reached out to me... but you didn't. Martha has taken my place.
I must go on and make my own way. I must take care of myself like I have all these years. It was good while it lasted.... and I do believe in your dream. I wish you had believed in me.
Help me Lord. Help me Lord to get control of myself. Kevin didn't love me Lord. His love was counterfeit. Please Lord, be my brother, my friend, my husband, my everything. I am so empty Lord. I feel so empty. Lord, please bring joy to my life. Please bless my finances, please help me to get glasses Lord. Please give me someone to love, Lord. I'm so empty, Lord. Please fill me up with your Love. In Jesus Name, Amen.
I've got to get myself under control. Tomorrow when I get up I will only eat what is good for me. I'll stay within my points.
If I get anxious, then I need to come blog about it. No more of this. This is abuse! I am abusing myself with food. I can't keep doing this. I think it is this sadness from my split with Kevin. Why do you have such power over me. I loved you Kevin. I still love you in my own way. I miss you so much. But you aren't good for me. If you wanted to, you could have reached out to me... but you didn't. Martha has taken my place.
I must go on and make my own way. I must take care of myself like I have all these years. It was good while it lasted.... and I do believe in your dream. I wish you had believed in me.
Help me Lord. Help me Lord to get control of myself. Kevin didn't love me Lord. His love was counterfeit. Please Lord, be my brother, my friend, my husband, my everything. I am so empty Lord. I feel so empty. Lord, please bring joy to my life. Please bless my finances, please help me to get glasses Lord. Please give me someone to love, Lord. I'm so empty, Lord. Please fill me up with your Love. In Jesus Name, Amen.
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