I can't stop crying, for some reason. I was watching a really good program.. The Waltons... and it was about the German Jews being persecuted for who they were in Germany.. and this family emigrated to America. I was so touched and I just started crying. I was crying for the story line, but there was more. I was crying for the emptiness inside of me.
I'm so sad and I don't know why. I know that people love me, and I love them. But I feel so alone in this world. I'm around people, but I don't belong. I am here, but I just don't seem to fit. It's like I'm a square peg trying to fit into a round hole. I have no one to share my life with. No special person to have and to hold.
Dear God I am so lonely. I am so depressed that I just can't seem to live one day to the next and just keep living the same way with the same emptiness. It hurts so much. Kevin hurt me so much. He just reminds me of how alone I really am.
I dearly miss my first husband. We were so young and we had no real start in life. The best thing that ever happened to us was that we had our daughter and then things just got worse and worse. Dad made things even worse... but Dick and I were too immature to be together at the time.
I wish that there was some way to have my relationship back with Dick. I wish he would love me. I wish I could love him. I miss him so much. Dick I love you. I guess you go by Richard now. You wait on your wife hand and foot... I guess you are happy with that. You have a daughter that is a lawyer and one that is a professional nanny who goes to other countries to work.
I am so sorry for the way our marriage ended. I wish things had been different. I wish you mother would have accepted me and I wish my dad had accepted you. I wish our lives didn't have to be so hard and always a fight.
Lord, I don't want to go on living if I can't be happy. I've never had anyone love me. No one has ever loved me. I think Dick did love me, but things were so wrong then.. I wish there was a way to make it right.
If not Dick.. Lord I wish you would give me someone in my life. Someone so I wouldn't be sad anymore... someone to love me. I want a life with someone who will make a life with me.
I'm so old now.. it doesn't matter.. but I am so lonely Lord. I'm hurting so much. I'm hurting Lord. I'm hurting!!!! Please take me out of this pain. I just want to be happy Lord. I don't want to be divorced. I want to be married. I want to be married. I want to be married!!!!!
I'm so sad and I don't know why. I know that people love me, and I love them. But I feel so alone in this world. I'm around people, but I don't belong. I am here, but I just don't seem to fit. It's like I'm a square peg trying to fit into a round hole. I have no one to share my life with. No special person to have and to hold.
Dear God I am so lonely. I am so depressed that I just can't seem to live one day to the next and just keep living the same way with the same emptiness. It hurts so much. Kevin hurt me so much. He just reminds me of how alone I really am.
I dearly miss my first husband. We were so young and we had no real start in life. The best thing that ever happened to us was that we had our daughter and then things just got worse and worse. Dad made things even worse... but Dick and I were too immature to be together at the time.
I wish that there was some way to have my relationship back with Dick. I wish he would love me. I wish I could love him. I miss him so much. Dick I love you. I guess you go by Richard now. You wait on your wife hand and foot... I guess you are happy with that. You have a daughter that is a lawyer and one that is a professional nanny who goes to other countries to work.
I am so sorry for the way our marriage ended. I wish things had been different. I wish you mother would have accepted me and I wish my dad had accepted you. I wish our lives didn't have to be so hard and always a fight.
Lord, I don't want to go on living if I can't be happy. I've never had anyone love me. No one has ever loved me. I think Dick did love me, but things were so wrong then.. I wish there was a way to make it right.
If not Dick.. Lord I wish you would give me someone in my life. Someone so I wouldn't be sad anymore... someone to love me. I want a life with someone who will make a life with me.
I'm so old now.. it doesn't matter.. but I am so lonely Lord. I'm hurting so much. I'm hurting Lord. I'm hurting!!!! Please take me out of this pain. I just want to be happy Lord. I don't want to be divorced. I want to be married. I want to be married. I want to be married!!!!!
